More lost than ever

Thoughts of non existens
are more and more tempting

I don´t wanna live
I´m lost
In my own mind
In my own sorrow
All alone

I´m lost
Don´t wanna be found
cause all I ever given
U
is sorrow and pain

I have realised..
My life is what it allways will be
Empty and filled with pain
? WHY LIVE IT ?

Why fight a battle
that i can´t win
???